I just want to Start by saying a huge thank you for the positive response that I have had for my first blog post. Every comment means a lot to me and I am just so pleased I can be a positive portal for those also going through their own personal struggles in life. Hopefully you can also find the strength and motivation to face your challenges head on from reading my blog posts. I am here to try and motivate, inspire and encourage a mind set that will hopefully stimulate you to find the best of you and use it to its ultimate advantage. After all life is what we make it.
This then brings me to my next blog subject “living with Dystonia” I haven’t really taken the time to explain how I cope with living with Dystonia on a day to day basis . I am very much of the mind set that you are in the drivers seat, you manifest your life through your thoughts and actions, so I guess the relevance to the point I am trying to make, is that I decided a long time ago that I was going to be in the drivers seat and not a passenger to my own life. I had been dealt this hand and I was going to play this the best of my advantage.
In the early days of having Dystonia I really struggled to cope and what I am now going to tell you, not many people know. Being 23 years of age, at my ultimate peak in life, to then so suddenly having to deal with the huge punch in the face that is Dystonia, it often became very overwhelming. I struggled a great deal. Unfortunately some of my coping mechanisms weren’t the best. I took a dangerous path that could have easily become very destructive if I had not pulled myself together. I found myself in this a very dark hole and i had nobody to turn to. I was very alone, having no real family network that I could rely on, as Unfortunately my relationship with my farther in recent years has been a difficult one, after losing my mother when I was just 15 years of age. I did not feel I could approach him for a shoulder to lean on. He has supported the best way he knew how but not in the way that I needed so much at the start.
Feeling so alone at this time, I turned to the things that for a moment numbed the emotional pain I was feeling but also gave me a boost of confidence. I don’t think I really need to spell out what I am relating to in this paragraph….. I spent a good year being quite destructive to my emotional and physical wellbeing and it took a lot of strength and a good hard talking to my self to realise that this is not the path I wanted to take nor that I had imagined for myself. It was time to make a change and face some demons head on. It was at this time accepted “Dystonia”. This was the moment I changed for the better.
Immersing myself into my new lifestyle, keeping in shape has been a great beacon for me. Not only has it kept me in physical shape but most importantly it has kept those dreaded demons at bay. I must admit I am slightly obsessive at times but I would also say and you will hopefully agree, its not a bad obsession to have. On a very serious note my lifestyle and the way I have designed it, is my lifeline.
Don’t get me wrong not everyday is plain sailing and still have many days of doubt but what I will say is having the opportunity to express myself to you guys is absolutely amazing, I no longer feel alone in my journey with Dystonia.
Here of some of the things that give me strength and keep me moving forward. I am so very lucky to be surrounded by the overwhelming love and support of the ones who care for me the most, without them I would be lost. Sometimes its the simplest things in life that make things clear to me and make me realise how lucky I am to be breathing, healthy and alive. Yes I have Dystonia but so what, Dystonia doesn’t control me, it does not define me and most importantly it does not dictate to me.
So with that said, I look forward to sharing my journey with you all. I hope to give a positive insight into my lifestyle and my coping mechanisms. You can look forward to snippets of my training routines, diet and also what I do with my downtime.
To finish off for the evening I would like to leave you with this quote “surrender to what is. Let get of what was and have faith in what will be”
Any comments or questions are very welcomed. #health